Lets be honest, perfectionism is a blessing and a curse. It has helped get me into college, a nursing career, and determined in many other things. But it has also brought me a lot of frustration, tears, and anger…at myself. It’s hard to find balance when your mind keeps whispering to you that you can’t mess up, that everything has to be in its place, that you have to look and act perfect or not only will others reject you but you will reject yourself. I also know that people struggle with these things without even being a perfectionist, it’s a part of being human.
Have you ever wondered why you feel these things though? Because personally giving it the excuse of being human just isn’t enough for me (maybe that stems from my detailed perfectionist mind ha), but I’ve gotten to the point many times that I just don’t want to feel that way anymore. I know this life has so much more to offer without putting extra stress on myself to perform a certain way and have to fill a certain image.
Everyone has their own story, their own upbringing, their own personal struggles. They all shape how we act and live out our day to day lives. There may be many pieces to the puzzle, or there may be one traumatic event that plays a role in how we are. I have multiple but one that really stands out to me is the fear of rejection. I want to be accepted, and my whole life I thought to be accepted I needed to be perfect. Meaning I needed to get the best grades, fulfill a certain look, never make others upset or angry..the list goes on. I cannot stand being critiqued because I internally feel like I did something wrong which means I messed up. All of this messes with your head! And I’m sure others have their own lies being whispered to them too.
Realizing this, however, allows me to address it. I don’t have to listen to the voices that whisper lies to me. I don’t have to look in the mirror and talk down to myself, or stress that I may have made someone upset by messing up. I don’t need to live in that fear. And thankfully I have a way out. I have FULL freedom from these things that plague me, and you have FULL freedom from the things that plague you. In Matthew 3:16-17 it states, “This is my Son, whom I love;with him I am well pleased.” God said this after Jesus was baptized before he had even started his ministry…God loved him just the way he was BEFORE PERFORMING. And he loves us just the same. In Psalm 139:13-14 it says,”For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” He created you, he knows who you are inside and out and nothing you do can make that waver.
If we can fully grasp this concept we can embrace the freedom that He has already given us. It’s not easy, and I’ve journaled about this topic maybe a million times and I still struggle with it, but I know each time is one step closer to feeling that full freedom that He wants me, and you, to live in every day ♡