It’s still hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that no matter what God won’t leave me or any of His children. No matter how many times I mess up He won’t turn His back on me, His child. No matter how many times I try to take control of situations that He wants in on, will he give up on me. He is there every moment of my life, right next to me giving me the love and the leading that I need in this life if I just reach out to Him.
I’ll be the first one to admit that when I get stressed, I put off praying, or I pray but not really. I want to get the stuff done that is stressing me out, I want to fix it, I want to take control and make it right. If I do pray it’s usually either a quick “help me” or a complete jumbled mess in between stressed sobs (cute I know) as I continue to try to fix. But neither one of those is surrendering. Neither one of those is giving up the stress, the anxiety, the anger I’m feeling because I have to deal with this stuff (which is by the way called life). God wants to help, He wants to be the one to pick you up when you are feeling lost, feeling depressed or angry. He wants to be the one to give you a hug when you feel alone or at the end of your rope. He wants full surrender, full permission of control for Him to come closer. He’s right there on the other side of the door knocking, waiting for you to open it up and for Him to come in and envelop you in his grace and love.
Sometimes (a lot of the time), it’s easy to get caught up in the mess of the world. The deadlines, the to do lists, the relationship problems, the personal problems…we forget that we don’t need to get caught up in it. What we need to get caught up in is our relationship with God, our dependence on Him and letting Him lead our path. When we do that, all the deadlines and to do lists aren’t stressful anymore, they are just things we will get done while walking with Him. The relationship and personal problems we are going through become more clear because we are close with Him who knows exactly what we need to do. The emotions of being stressed, angry, sad don’t run our lives anymore because we are living in His joy and peace. I’ve found that staying in this joy and peace is not easy…it takes work and time of being with Him and in His word. But when He is your everything, don’t you want to spend time with Him? Don’t you want to get to know Him better, He who loves you more than anyone else in this world? I’ve also found that when I do get caught up in the world and my emotions I’m too tired to spend time with Him. And it becomes this cycle of running myself busy and tired and handling it all on my own and not being with Him. But it could be a cycle of spending time with Him and letting Him walk with me. It’s up to us which one it will be, but He will always choose the second one because he loves you and He doesn’t want you to waste this life away with due dates and dwelling on problems. He wants you fully alive and at peace.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and burden is light.
So take the time to pray, take the time to love on Him, take the time to surrender what you’re holding onto..and watch His love flow onto you and your life.